Episode 4

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16th Jun 2022

Autistic Resistance: The Foundations

Autistic advocate and academic Lulu Larcenciel sits down with host Jessa McLean to challenge misconceptions surrounding autism, discuss the need for massive shift in how we accommodate for neurodivergent community members, and take a critical look at so-called progressive policy that is impacting disabled people.

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Greetings, rabble rousers.

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My name is Jessa McLean and welcome

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to Blueprints for Disruption,

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a weekly discussion dedicated to

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amplifying activism across Turtle

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Island.

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Together, we will examine tactics,

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explore motivations, and celebrate

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successes in disrupting the status

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quo.

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This podcast is a proud part of

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new left media.

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We've labeled this episode Autistic

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Resistance the Foundations.

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It's an in-depth discussion with

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Lulu La Conceal, an autistic

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and disabled advocate, an

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academic that really doesn't sum

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up all the things that Lulu does.

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You're going to hear some sorely

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needed myth busting.

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It's going to be a critical look at

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so-called progressive policies that

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are negatively impacting disabled

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people.

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Lulu is going to help us all get out

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of the past in terms of what we

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think we know.

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Autistic and neurodivergent people

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need to thrive.

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It really is incredible what we can

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learn if we just listen.

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Welcome to Blueprints of Disruption.

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Lulu, I am so happy

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to have you on the show.

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You've been a wealth of knowledge

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for me for

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a few years now, and so I'm excited

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to share your voice with other

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people.

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Can you go ahead and please

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introduce yourself to everybody?

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Sure.

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So my name is

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Lulu Larcenciel.

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I am she her.

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I am an autistic

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and disabled

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advocate, activist

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and academic

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in currently

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living in St Catherine's at Brock

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University, studying

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young autistic people's wellbeing.

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And I have

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been a

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sort of political and social justice

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volunteer and

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advocate and member

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for quite some time.

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Also being queer, I also

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have a lot of sort

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of strange and exciting

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experiences from queer advocacy,

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although most of those are not not

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very novel and have been on many

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podcasts before.

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So probably I'll focus more on the

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disability angle, which

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I feel like really hasn't been

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represented that well in the past.

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Thank you, Lulu. I mean, that's

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definitely been my experience

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organizing on the left.

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I've never seen a group

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as a so-called equity seeking

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group marginalized more

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than the disabled community.

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It's it's

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shocking to see on the left.

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I would say.

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Yeah, it's not so much of

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like a comparative thing either.

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Right?

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And it's I mean, I think,

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you know, being queer,

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being a woman, all of the groups

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that I am a part of have been

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horribly,

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you know, prejudiced and

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up against and and oppressed.

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But I think it's

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it's it's a kind of hypocrisy

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where.

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The same behavior

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or similar behavior

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on the part of politicians

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towards disabled people

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that they absolutely

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revile in other politicians.

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When those politicians do that

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to women or whatever

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other group.

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And I do think that

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that is quite an interesting

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phenomenon.

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But I I'm not

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I'm not big on the comparisons

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because then you can sometimes get

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into sort of conflating

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different kinds of problems, you

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know, black autistic people

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face.

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Mountains.

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Exponentially more violence

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than white autistic people,

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for example.

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And even within our party,

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you know, within various

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political structures, within

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academic institutions,

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even within,

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you know, most aspects of

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society.

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And it

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again and I'm sure

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you talk about intersectionality

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and, you know, every interview

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you have, I'm sure.

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And that's important because.

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Yeah, it is it is 100%

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true that disabled people are

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marginalized and pushed

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aside in left

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circles in a way that is just

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completely absurd.

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And it's it's contradictory to

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everything that those those left

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circles

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say that they're standing for and

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say that they're

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fighting for.

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And then to turn around and and

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sort of do the opposite to the

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disabled folks in their midst.

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It's it is startling how common

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it is.

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Absolutely.

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I understand you're kind of checking

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me there on the comparison.

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I do appreciate that, because you're

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100% right.

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It's just yeah, it's just I expect

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better, you know, when you see,

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you know, abled people chairing

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the disabled committee,

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you wouldn't see that otherwise.

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So, yeah,

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it is very interesting.

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I can't imagine an organization

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which is committed to social

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justice and anti oppression,

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you know, hiring a man

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to be the

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women's coordinator.

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But you will find someone who's not

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disabled as an accessibility

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coordinator.

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And I don't understand how that

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happens.

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I don't understand how that's not an

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actual expert on

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disability, an actual disabled

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person being put in that role, but

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just a non-disabled

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person who's getting that tacked on

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to their other job

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as though it's just, you know, some

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other task, as though it's not a

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critical tool

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to ensure that,

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you know, a fifth of

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the population has access to your

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organization.

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Yeah, you frame it as like a

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dismissal of its importance.

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It's true. I thought of

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the paternalism that goes into

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that thinking that,

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you know, if even if they thought it

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was critical, it could not be left

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to disabled folks to do.

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Very interesting conversations that

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go on about, you

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know, whether whether disabled

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people are capable.

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And this is something

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this is something which is used

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as an excuse across systems.

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Right. This is an excuse that's used

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to deny people

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accommodations.

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If you already seem like you're

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capable of doing something, even if

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you're disabled and you're saying,

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hey, I need this accommodation,

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you know, it's it's used to

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to kind of mock people.

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It's used to to kind of try and

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drag someone down when they ask for

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something and say, oh, well, if you

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can't do this without it

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and really try to make you feel bad

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about it and

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it's unfortunately,

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yeah, it really does lead people to

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these bizarre

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and incredibly cruel opinions

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and suggestions that disabled

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folks aren't capable of

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moderating our own spaces

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and deciding

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what accessibility is necessary

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that has to go through non-disabled

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gatekeepers in every

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organization I've ever been part of,

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which is horrifying.

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It's just disturbing.

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You you listed

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a bunch of A's when you introduced

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yourself. You're an academic, you're

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an advocate, you're an activist,

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but you're autistic.

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If you don't mind, I would like to

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focus on that because

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and the comment that you made

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earlier about capacity

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and misconceptions.

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So you seemingly, you know, you

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listed a whole bunch of things that

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you do. I know you left off a

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lot of stuff because we're going to

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have to talk about the end and end

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up later.

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And so you do

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a lot you're breaking

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misconceptions about people with

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autism, right?

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There are.

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Autistic people.

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Autistic people think

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what what other misconceptions

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are people holding, especially

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on the left, you know,

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comments that, you know, we'll be

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listening about autistic

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people.

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And particularly

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their ability to advocate.

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Yeah.

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Um, so

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this is an interesting and

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especially that last sort of part of

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the question about advocating

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because, yeah, I'm artistic,

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I'm a

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queer.

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Artistic who was

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like, who? And I'm closest this

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woman.

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And among

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autistic people,

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women are.

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Horrifically underdiagnosed.

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And this has led to one

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huge conception and

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misconception, which is

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a lot of people still believe.

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Yeah. No, this is also true on the

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left. I was just checking in my

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brain.

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Yeah. A lot of people believe that

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autism is a boy's

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thing.

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This is a stereotype

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which has been true for quite some

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time.

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Across cultures,

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they have this stereotype across

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and this is partially due to

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some really flawed research that

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came out quite early on,

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which called autism

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a male brain disorder,

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which, yeah, it was

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just silly, quite frankly.

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It was just a really silly theory.

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It's been disproven a number of

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times, but this this

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myth persists.

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And the reason that I use that one

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first is just because it's a really

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easy obvious.

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Myth.

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It's very clearly a piece of

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misinformation that that

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that there are more autistic

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boys than girls.

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But this is something people believe

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wholeheartedly.

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And, you know, research over the

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last ten years all contradicts

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that and says that girls

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have been wildly underdiagnosed

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and wildly under-recognised

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as autistic girls have

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gone without accommodations,

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without recognition,

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and they've ended up in severe

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mental distress.

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They've ended up with depression,

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they've ended up suicidal.

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Many of them are no longer with us.

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A horrifying study was recently

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revealed right here

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in Ontario from 2010 to

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2016.

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Autistic people were six times

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more likely to die than

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non-autistic people with

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other matching

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demographics.

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That mortality rate doesn't

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come out of thin air,

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and a lot of it is due to

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misconceptions that lead to

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autistic people going unrecognized

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and accommodated.

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And the reason that I really focus

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on that is that.

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The way people conceptualize

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autism right now

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is.

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Based on all of these different

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myths, and they're sort of piecing

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these different stereotypes and

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myths and things they've seen in

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sensationalized movies and

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things they've heard from, you know,

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their their neighbors

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brothers got a kid

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who's autistic.

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And so they know from hearing about

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that.

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And that doesn't actually result

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in knowledge, right?

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That doesn't actually result in

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understanding a situation,

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especially something as complicated

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as the human brain, which is

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where autism, you know,

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is located.

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Autism is the way that a brain is

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wired. It's it's the way that a

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brain and nervous system

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are connected to each

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other and the way that the nervous

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system interacts with the world

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around it.

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My cat is just

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causing some trouble, so I just have

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to get him settled so that I can

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make sure he's not going.

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Are you going to just chill or.

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This isn't just any cat, by the way.

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This cat has been immortalized on

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fridge magnets around

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around the globe.

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Sure.

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Yeah. I mean, another thing about

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autism is a

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trait of being autistic is

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when you like something

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are just going

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ahead and letting yourself like it.

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And one of the things I really like

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is cats.

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And my cat is the best cat.

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As any cat owner knows,

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your cat is the best cat.

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That's just science.

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That's how that works.

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And yeah, I definitely

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also love making buttons

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again, thanks to advocacy.

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But I got a button maker for

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as a graduation present,

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and so I have definitely made

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buttons and magnets of my cat

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and sent them

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all over the world, actually, not

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even just all over Canada.

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So

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we have one on my fridge.

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I got my daughter playing with it

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the other day. I'm like, Oh, that's

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good. He goes up top,

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he's got a cab along the bottom.

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But yeah,

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you talked about accommodations,

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right? And I think

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right now when we think

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of dealing

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with autistic people, I

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say it because I feel like that's

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how people look at it, not because

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they're thinking of accommodations,

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but what they're using right now is

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a lot of ABA therapy, right?

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If you're in the NDP, you're getting

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talking points.

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How important this therapy is

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and it's

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a large basis of

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our funding model

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is that how we should be

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accommodating? Is are these the kind

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of I know your answer, obviously,

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but what's up with that?

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I mean, why is it so focused

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on that and not actually

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accommodations?

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Yeah, this is

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an excellent question.

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And, you know,

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I, I think it's actually

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also a good point to put

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the question in because it really is

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a fundamental part of how people

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misunderstand autism and

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autistic people.

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A lot of people will see me

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doing advocacy.

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They'll see me on,

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you know, the last few years.

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The only reason I've been able to be

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so successful is the last few years

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we've all been doing

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things remotely. And so I've been

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able to do things from my own house,

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and that's where most of my

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accommodations are in

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my house when I have to leave my

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house and and I have to, you know,

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pack the accommodations I can take

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to go

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in. Normally, I end up

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not being able to do as much stuff

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and not being able to.

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You know, you said at the beginning,

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I do a lot.

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I do much less

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when I have to do it without all

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of my accommodations.

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And

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the reason that

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all of these accommodations are so

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helpful to me now I've got things

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like stim toys, which

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are just little.

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I've got, for example, a little

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3D printed worm

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that kind of click says as you

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as you wiggle it along.

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And this is something that I can

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hold in my hands while I'm having a

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serious political meeting and

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I can feel the way that

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this is.

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It's a little bit stronger of a like

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a stripey kind of plastic

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if you've ever held on to like a 3D

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printed thing before, you know,

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there's like a grain to it.

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And so I can feel that grain and I

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can feel the way that the different

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interlocking parts of this thing are

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moving. And I can process

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that and I can hear this distinct

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little clicky noise that it makes.

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And I can do all of that while

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I'm in a meeting so that my

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sensory system, which needs a

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serious amount of input at all

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times, is regulated.

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And that means I can actually

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process what that politician's

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saying and then I can respond

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to them with the information that is

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there in my brain ready to respond

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to. Now, if I'm sitting in a

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meeting room and there's flickering

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lights which are giving me a crazy

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headache and my eyes hurt

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and everything's way too bright in

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there, and it's actually kind of

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cold and I'm sitting on this chair

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that is just I cannot sit

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comfortably in and because of

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professionalism, I can't put my feet

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up on the chair and I can't cross my

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legs.

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So I can't have that sensory input

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either. And I can't be fidgeting

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with something and I can't have

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anything in my hands.

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And I have to be looking at this

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person's face in front of me

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and I have to be monitoring my own

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facial expression and I have

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to be doing all of these things.

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I don't have the energy left to

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listen to what they're saying.

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I don't have the energy left to come

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up with something to respond with

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because my brain is too busy

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processing all of this sensory

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information with absolutely no

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regulating tools.

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And the reason that I explain it

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this way is because

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I could be explaining a political

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meeting that I took part in as

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part of a writing executive,

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or I could be explaining

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math class

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when I was eight.

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And they're both the exact same.

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Exactly the same.

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Autistic people are human beings.

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When we grow up,

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we actually have mostly

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the same needs

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and we actually go

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through the world as unique

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individuals.

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And that means problems that we have

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as kids are going to persist

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as adults.

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Now, a lot of people's solution,

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like you say to the problem,

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a lot of people's solution

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to having to deal with autistic

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kids is.

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Yeah, right now behavioral

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intervention.

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And so this means that

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when a child is unable to

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sit still in

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the lights without

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playing with anything

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and pay attention and look in their

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teacher's eyeballs,

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they are having bad behavior.

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They're having problematic

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behavior.

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And so they are referred

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to behavioral intervention

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to change their external behavior.

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Now, some of this behavioral

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intervention starts with like

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a behavioral

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assessment

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where they try to pin

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the cause down on

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a narrow little

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list and then they

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try to change the behavior.

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And so they they

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show the kid the behavior they want

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to see, and

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then they tell the kid it's their

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turn. And if the kid does the

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behavior.

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Sit still.

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I sit still.

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Look at me in the eyes, talk

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out loud, say this exact word back

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to me, point to this thing,

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whatever else, put this thing on

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that's uncomfortable for you,

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You know, whatever it is,

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interrupt what you're doing to wave

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at this stranger, whatever

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it is.

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And these are all the

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more benign ones.

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To be honest, there are much worse.

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You know, and then if the kid

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does it, then

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they get a lot of praise

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and positive feedback and a lot of

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the time, like stickers or candies

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or they get to play with their

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favorite toy or

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they get to have their comfort item

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or whatever else.

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And then if they

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do it wrong, then they

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get told to do it again.

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Positively with a big smile.

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They get told to do it again.

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Why is that bad, Lulu?

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You know, a lot of parents would

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hear that and go, Yeah,

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I do a form of that kind

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of. Absolutely.

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You know, absolutely.

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I got my kid inside with an M&M

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yesterday.

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So the problem is.

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There is a reason.

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That autistic children.

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Need accommodations.

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Autistic people are

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wired differently.

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Our bodies and brains react to

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the world around us differently

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than non-autistic people.

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Behavior interventions.

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Goals

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are based on non

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people.

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These are goals that

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are based on

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what non autistic

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people are

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expected to and

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normally able

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to do without thinking.

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Even things like.

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Like making eye contact,

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for example.

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But for an autistic kid,

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something like sitting still

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without playing with something

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or making eye contact with somebody

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is painful.

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Now, here's the other thing.

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Another misconception is that

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autistic kids reacting to sensory

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stuff is because they don't like

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it.

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This is phrasing that's used

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or that they're scared of

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it. People will say, Oh, my child is

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scared of the vacuum cleaner

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because she covers her ears every

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time I turn it on.

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And that's not fear.

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Maybe that becomes fear

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of sensory pain,

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But sensory pain is not dislike.

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It's not fear when you're

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overloaded in one of your

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senses.

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It feels as though you

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are going to burst

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when I have to, like, go

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outside into a bright sun,

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sunny day with no sunglasses

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on. It's not that I'm kind

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of uncomfortable.

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It's that I'm in pain.

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It hurts.

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And what happens when we reduce that

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to behavior,

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when we say, oh, no.

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Well, the external behavior.

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Oh, she's she she

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screams and hides when we take her

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outside in the sunshine.

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We have to teach her to stand still

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in the sunshine.

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We have to teach her to stand here

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like the other kids are standing.

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So we're going to

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we're going to enforce her.

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Until she does that, until she just

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stands here like the other kids are

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standing.

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And then you've got

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a little kid who's in pain

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and who's not telling you she's in

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pain because she doesn't know how to

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describe that and

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who's not able to go anywhere

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because they've prevented her from

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going anywhere and hiding.

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And she's not able to do anything to

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escape the sensory pain.

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And she's also not allowed to

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acknowledge that sensory pain out

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loud.

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I don't know who might believe

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that sensory pain is going to

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disappear because of that,

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because what actually happens is it

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builds up inside of

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that person.

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And autistic people have so

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much sensory

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pain and emotional overwhelm

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and informational overwhelm

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and change, overwhelm

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going on inside of our brains and

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bodies at all times

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that what inevitably happens

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is the dam bursts

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and we have

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serious distress

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because of that, because we are

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completely overloaded.

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And again,

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people want to treat that

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behaviorally.

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People want to say that

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an autistic child who has

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been stressed and overwhelmed

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all day by the sensory

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hell that is our public

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school system.

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Has been absolutely

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decimated by the lights and

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the screaming of the other kids

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and having to look up from the work

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that they just want to be doing all

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day long and then getting

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in.

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Trouble for fidgeting.

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Getting in trouble for fidgeting,

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having to try and hold yourself

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still.

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And then they get home.

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Of course, they're going to cry.

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Of course, they're going to need to

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release that pent up energy because

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we pushed them down all

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day long and then we

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expected them not to come back

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up into their their human form.

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These are people.

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Children are people.

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And it really seems like folks

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forget that these behavior folks,

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because children are not a series of

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behaviors.

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They're human beings.

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And that's not acknowledged

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in behavioral approaches.

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It's really not.

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And, you know,

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behavioral conditioning has a

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absolutely.

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Of a history,

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you know, and they talk about the

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evidence behind behavioral

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conditioning. And, yeah, let's draw

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it to its root, which is,

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you know, conversion therapy,

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the root of behavioral

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analysis.

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Love is and his team

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his team was also foundational

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in queer conversion therapy

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because that was a behavior they

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didn't like.

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And just the same way that queer

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conversion therapy,

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I shouldn't even call it therapy,

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but queer conversion practices

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the attempt to change a

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queer person's behaviors

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so they won't be queer any more, an

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attempt to convince a person

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through that, through

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behaviorally controlling them,

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that that they're not queer anymore.

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You know, we've also got

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autistic conversion practices, ABA

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and behavioral conditioning and

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behavioral intervention.

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And these are practices

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that aim to make autistic people

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act like we're

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not autistic. And that doesn't just

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mean we're they're trying to make

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us make eye contact.

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It means they're trying to make us

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act as though we are not

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experiencing the world

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the way that we are.

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When you're in sensory overload, you

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can act like you're not in sensory

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overload, and that doesn't change

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for a second. The fact that that's

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what you are experiencing

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and after a while that

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adds up Again.

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There are really horrifying studies

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showing that autistic people are

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considerably more likely to die

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young, not just by

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things like random

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unexplained heart

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conditions, but

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also one

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of our highest killers

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is suicide.

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And when we've asked autistic people

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in research why, why

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are so many of you suicidal?

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What autistic people have

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answered with is I am expected

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to act like somebody else

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all the time.

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I can't do it.

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I'm burnt out.

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I'm tired.

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I don't want to live here

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if I have to act like someone else.

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And we know this research has turned

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this up countless times

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and.

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Will be called masking Lulu.

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It is. It is.

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This is commonly called masking

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in autistic communities.

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The the act of having to cover

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yourself up and present a version

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of yourself that isn't autistic,

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that isn't quite you, that isn't

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authentic.

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And a lot of people look at this and

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they say, Hey, I have to do that

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too,

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for work, or I have

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to do that when I'm around people

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that don't like me or whatever else.

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And the reason that I, I, you

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know, didn't

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open by just trying to

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explain it as as, you

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know, covering yourself up is

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because it's it's.

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An attempt to make us change

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from the outside in

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and society.

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The education systems

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psychology these.

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Institutions

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have tried really hard to

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make autistic people not autistic

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anymore from the outside, in

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the same worldwide institution

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that certifies the

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certified behavioral

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specialists in Ontario.

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That same international institution

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also certifies the behavior analysts

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at the Judge Rotenberg Center in

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the States who are currently

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administering electric shocks to

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autistic children, mostly

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black and brown children

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who were never given the chance

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to develop any accommodations or

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any other type of of

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life, and instead are in an

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institution getting electric

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shocks for their behavior

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because that institution can't see

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past behavior.

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And this is why anyone

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who's offering behaviorism and

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behavioral intervention as a

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solution for autism is

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dangerous.

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That's someone who doesn't

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understand what autism is and what

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autistic people need.

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I'm going to give you another chance

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to smash a misconception.

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Yeah, one that I admittedly

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needed to hear about,

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and that's non-speaking autistic

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people.

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So a lot of the pushback

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that I would hear

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in terms of ABA

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and self-advocacy

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is that if basically

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folks who can't speak,

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can't advocate for themselves, and

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so you and

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other autistic people

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who do.

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Verbally communicate

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or speaking over them.

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And, you know, only their

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caregivers really can

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speak to their lived experience.

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Yeah.

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So let me tell you, this

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is actually this

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is a very common you're right.

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Another common misconception.

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And this is actually

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something where I do believe a lot

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of people need to grow their

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understanding.

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And this was true for myself as

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well. I'm autistic.

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My big brother is also autistic.

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My big brother was one of the first

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folks that was in

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Voices who

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in Ozzy's original

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studies, when they realized autistic

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people could also be gifted.

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And both me and my brother are

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Obviously I'm as I'm speaking.

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The reason that's obvious is because

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we don't have enough funding in

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alternative communication to have

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voices that actually

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modulate the way mine does yet,

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which is very unfortunate and

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something I'll get into.

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But yeah,

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and this is something that even I

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believed for a little while, which

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is that, you know, not

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non-speaking autistics,

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they can't add to

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the conversation themselves.

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And so we have to listen to

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the, the, the broadly

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non-autistic parents around them.

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And that's that's who knows best.

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But that opinion of

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that I also used to hold

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got smashed pretty quickly when

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I met non-speaking autistic

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people myself.

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And this is something that like,

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you know, growing up,

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I grew up in the same society

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as the rest of you, where we devalue

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disabled people, we

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seriously devalue

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disabled people who have been

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labeled with things like severe

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and low functioning

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and profoundly disabled.

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We immediately, as a

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society, we decide

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that life must be terrible,

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that must be a low

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down life because of those

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labels. Those labels do something

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to us. They impact how we feel

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about the people they are used for.

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And those are labels frequently

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used for non-speaking autistic

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people.

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And that really gets in your head,

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however.

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Non-speaking autistic advocates

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are absolutely

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rocking

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the advocacy world and the

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world in general right now.

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I'm at

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the time of recording

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this in the last week,

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actually.

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But maybe I'll just say recently,

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recently a a

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clip went viral

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of Elizabeth Parker,

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who is a non-speaking autistic

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girl in the United

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States who

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was valedictorian of her class

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this year and for her graduating

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class in her her graduation speech,

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which was delivered

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by an AC

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device, which is an alternative

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and augmentative communication

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device.

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Her speech went viral and a lot of

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people got to see it, and it

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challenged a lot of people.

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People really do not expect

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a non-speaking autistic

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person to have

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competence.

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And this is what non-speaking

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advocates.

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The very first lesson that I learned

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from non-speaking autistic

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advocates.

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And this is folks like

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Kal montgomery.

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The very first lesson

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is presume competence.

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And this is something that we fail

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to do as a society.

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We fail to presume competence

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in non-speaking autistics.

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And what that leads to and

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what that falls from

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is these behavior ideas.

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Because what non-speaking folks want

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us to know

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is that non-speaking

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does not equal non thinking.

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And it does not equal incapable.

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But people do have this in their

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heads that a non-speaking autistic

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person doesn't

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have mental capacity.

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Or this other one, which is very

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common, which is mental age.

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People will say, Oh yeah, my oh,

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my brother is 18, but he has the

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mental age of eight or.

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Whatever, mental capacity or.

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Mental capacity of a six

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year old.

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And look,

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these people are repeating what they

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have been told by a

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supposed medical professional.

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The problem is that it matters

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how they determined

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that.

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It matters how they decided.

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This guy has a low IQ.

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I don't know.

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A lot of people are not

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aware of this,

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but IQ tests

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are actually

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entirely dependent on

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motor capacity

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and your motor coordination

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because you need to be able to,

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especially as a child, for

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a child's IQ test,

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you need to be able to point

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to the word that the person said

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or you need to be able to.

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And I.

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Right.

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A particular word

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or you might need to speak

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out loud and repeat a

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particular word or spell

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a word out loud with your

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with your voice.

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And all of those are motor tasks.

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Actually, those those

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don't actually determine whether

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somebody knows that thing.

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It just determines whether they can

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do the motor task to prove to you

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that they know the thing.

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Now, it's pretty basic and

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obvious when when we lay it

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out that way that these IQ tests

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are not doing a good job

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at measuring capacity,

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they're just doing a good job at

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measuring motor function.

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And unfortunately, what that leads

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to is people thinking that non

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speakers are incapable.

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I have a good friend

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here in Ontario, an advocate who

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works with the International

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Association for Spelling

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as Communication.

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His name is William Tavares.

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And William

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grew up here in Ontario.

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He's he's

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he's only just starting high school

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now.

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And he grew up in behavior

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classes and behavior programs

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because he didn't speak,

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because he didn't talk and because

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when he was overwhelmed, he screamed

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and hit and flailed his arms

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and tried to get away from

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the thing that was hurting him.

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But nobody ever asked what

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in this room is hurting you?

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Before he could speak, before he had

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a communication device.

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Nobody went and brought him into

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the room and pointed out different

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parts of it and said, Is that

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overwhelming to you?

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Is that too much?

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And let him give an affirmative

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or negative answer that was never

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provided.

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What was provided was behavioral

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intervention to change how he

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was reacting to those stimulus

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and how he was reacting to

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not being able to share his opinions

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and his feelings and his needs

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because he didn't have a form of

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communication.

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Now, when William did get access

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to communication and

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this happens right now,

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unfortunately, pretty much by luck,

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when parents allow

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themselves to be exposed to

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other autistic advocates

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and when parents allow themselves to

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be exposed to non

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speakers who have developed systems

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of communication.

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But when William was able to

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access communication, he uses

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spellings to communicate, which

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means he has

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managed to get enough motor training

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so that he can spell words

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out on a letter board

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and his communication

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partner goes ahead and writes

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that down

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or says it out loud.

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If he's on a call

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and this is a valid form

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of communication.

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Since finding that communication,

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William's doing normal school

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classes, he's able to actually

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do the kind of work that is up

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to his his the caliber

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of his brain.

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And a few years ago, he was still

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getting toddler books read to him

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because he wasn't able to outloud

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read them back to the teacher

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just over and over again

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because they thought that repetition

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was going to teach him, because

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that's how behavior works.

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When you do a behavior over and over

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and over again, eventually

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you're supposed to learn that that's

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that's the right way of doing

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things.

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But unfortunately,

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apraxia and dyspraxia

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and other motor connection

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coordination conditions

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like William and a lot of non

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speakers have aren't

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behaviors, they're not

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behavioral.

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That's an actual physical

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motor problem with the way that

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the brain is sending signals.

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And that's something that can be

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worked through, but not by a

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behavioral interventionist and

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not by repetition.

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You need an actual physical

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therapist or a physio

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or sometimes an occupational

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therapist, but only if they've been

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trained in kinesiology

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because that's a motor problem.

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That's a problem of the actual

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physical connections.

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But if non-speaking

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kids are put into these behavioral

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programs and

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yeah, every once in a while they,

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they learn how to perform a

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behavior.

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Absolutely.

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Sometimes you can

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hear stories from non speakers

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who will talk about

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behaviors and actions

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that they learned how to perform

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even though they weren't feeling

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that way. And even though that's not

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what they wanted to say

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because they would get treated

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better if they performed it.

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And like, if that sounds cruel to

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you, then it is because these are

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children we're talking about,

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not employees,

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we're talking about children.

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And these standards are imposed on

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them. You know.

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I think like when anybody looks at

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it from even if they

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can't understand autistic people,

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I think a lot of people's empathy

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rides, unfortunately, on being able

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to understand why someone would be

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upset by lights when they cannot

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fathom that, you know, or

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and so it stops like there's no

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level of there's no attempt

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to kind of, yeah, provide

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accommodation or empathy without

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fully understanding

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why it seems so unreasonable.

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Like when we see meltdowns and and

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you know what I mean? Like that's

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just seen as bad behavior often

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and

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it's just yeah, I,

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I do appreciate you kind of doing so

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much work in breaking

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these stigmas and,

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you know, trying to show people what

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actual accommodation looks like,

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what access to communication

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looks like.

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It's not all the same for everybody.

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Yeah.

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I want to just say I really

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appreciate you bringing that up

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because one of the one of the ways

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that this kind of misinformation and

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these kind of stigmas are

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being perpetuated is that folks

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aren't hearing these messages.

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They're not hearing from the people

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who are actually most impacted like

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non speakers.

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You know, the work that I do is is

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all 100% informed by the

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non-speaking autistic leaders

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that I'm following.

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I'm not you

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know, I'm a I didn't

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learn any of this by myself.

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This comes from.

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Folks that are living through

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absolute hell because our society

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believes that being non-speaking

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is some kind of challenging

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behavior.

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And one of the things that

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I've learned is, you

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know, I promise I'll talk

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more about advocacy in politics.

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But as as

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a researcher and as a

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teacher and a student

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at this time, I've actually been

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really startled.

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I did a I did a guest lecture

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in a fourth

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year like final year.

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Disability studies are

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a child and youth studies class.

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And it was like the disability

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issues class for senior child

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and youth studies undergrads.

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And I did a guest lecture and I

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talked about how autistic kids

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experience the world.

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And I had a little

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chart that had, you know, the

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behavior on one side and then the

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experience on the other side.

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And so the behavior might

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be, I

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can't sit still.

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And then the experience

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might be I feel like there's

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electricity going up and down my

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legs. And if I don't run to get

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it out, then I can't

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think about anything else.

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I feel like pain in my legs.

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I'm cramping up now.

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What am I supposed to do?

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And I made this little chart and to

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me that seems these things seemed

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obvious, right?

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Because I might just say this is how

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I experience the world.

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But to those students,

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to those child and youth studies

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students who are in their final

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year, I had someone put up her hand

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and say specifically,

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I just want to say I've never

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thought about it like that.

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And that's horrifying to me that

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for years through child abuse

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studies, the children have not been

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ask to the students have not been

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asked.

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How do you think the kid is

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experiencing this situation?

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They haven't sat down and thought

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about it, and I really that

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makes me worry.

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And I think that's the same problem

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in politics, is that these

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people have never sat

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and thought about, oh, how

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might this experience be for

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someone who has a different

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brain than me, who has a different

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nervous system, whose body reacts

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to external stimulus differently

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than mine.

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And it's really hard sometimes to

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put yourself in someone else's shoes

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when you've never

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had the opportunity to hear from

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from people like that who've

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you've never had access to the

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resources.

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So I don't I don't blame people that

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don't have access to the resources.

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But once you've been given those

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resources and once you've been told

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these children are not being

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naughty, they're in pain

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and they need accommodations, and

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you still say

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no, it's just a behavior problem.

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That's cruelty, because

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children are people, which is

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something I shouldn't have to keep

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reminding politicians, but I do.

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People being able to communicate

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like their experience.

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Does it come naturally, though, to

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especially when they're not

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diagnosed?

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Part of the reason there's such a

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huge phenomenon of missed

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diagnosis

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and this is not just women and

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trans folks.

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This is also black kids

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and indigenous kids and Asian

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kids and

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Latin American kids.

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This is literally all over the

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place.

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The the sort of assessment

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criteria

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for for autism.

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Is very much focused on

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the white,

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upper middle class boys,

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little boys that they were studying

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at the time when they developed that

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criteria.

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The actual criteria, like the

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exclusion criteria for

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the studies that they did to form

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autism assessment criteria,

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the exclusion criteria mandated

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that only boys were included.

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So there's actually

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there's like.

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Millions of autistic people

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all over the world who are

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unrecognized and unacknowledged

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and trying to live through this

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world which is designed not just

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not for us, but actively

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against us.

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A lot of the time

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and when you're not diagnosed,

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you think you're just weak.

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You think you're just not doing

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things well enough.

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I'm 100% sure that people are going

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to listen to this podcast and

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they're going to hear these traits

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that I'm talking about and they're

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going to hear the way that the world

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is experienced by autistics and

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they're going to say, Wait a minute.

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Everybody doesn't feel that way.

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Everybody doesn't go through crisis

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because they are they are made to

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look in people's eyeballs.

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Maybe I might be autistic.

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And that happens every time

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I speak publicly.

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Someone comes up to me afterwards

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and says, I have been miserable

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because I thought I was broken.

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And it turns out I'm autistic.

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And now I don't know what to do.

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And normally the reason you

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don't know what to do is because,

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yeah, you don't have the

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terminology.

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You don't know how the systems work.

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You don't know how the sensory

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system works.

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You weren't actually explained that

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past what each of the five

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senses are.

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We were never taught sensory

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regulation as kids.

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You don't know how to explain it.

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And that's one of the big problems

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with not only, you know, undiagnosed

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adults but children.

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We go to children and we punish them

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for behaving

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distressed,

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and we haven't taught them yet

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what it means to emotionally

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regulate what it means to regulate

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your sensory system

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in a plain language way that kids

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can understand. That's just not

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something that's done for how.

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To accommodate themselves or how

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great it is.

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Absolutely.

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Don't even know where to start to

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feel better, you know, until,

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you know, there is some sort of, I

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think, intervention or I.

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A lot of the stuff that you do is

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building peer groups as well

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and hanging out with other

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neurodivergent people

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and knowing how they,

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you know, their accommodations,

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their snooze rooms, their,

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you know, and

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that's that's really, you know, from

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my personal experience that that was

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really missing.

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And I'm so glad you talk

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about it the way that you do.

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Oh,

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well it's and that's the thing

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that's important because so many

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people have had to go without.

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And that's just something that,

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you know, you're going to get me

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going. Sorry, That's just something.

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Don't worry.

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No, that's that's one of the really

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big fears, is even the kids

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that grow up knowing they're

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autistic. And that's this is the big

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thing. Another thing like everywhere

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in disability issues, you see people

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trying to split up into binaries.

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You see people trying to say visible

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and invisible disability.

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You see people try to say mental

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and physical disability.

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You try to say all of these

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different binaries. You try to say

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high functioning and low functioning

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and you try to bust stuff up.

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And honestly,

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even the people who are recognized

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because they're still put into these

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weird ass binaries that don't

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fit the human experience,

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they still actually don't get access

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to the support they really need.

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They just get told, you

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know, oh, here's here's how you can

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behave like other people do.

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And that means that even even folks

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that are recognized, you know, it's

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not even undiagnosed and diagnosed

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folks because diagnosed folks also

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go without accommodation because

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they're essentially told they're not

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trying hard enough to not be

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autistic anymore,

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which is horrifying.

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Who wants that anyway?

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So I know

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who would be terrible.

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The world would be a lesser place.

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But that's the thing of it.

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And when when

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we assume that

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we understand

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the experiences of somebody totally

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different from ourselves, we often

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miss out on stuff.

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And that is what has happened with

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autistic people and with

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non-speaking autistic people,

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especially when I started actually

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hanging out with non-speaking

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autistic people,

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I, I still had this idea

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in my head of like, well,

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you know, I don't have

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things like as bad as non

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speakers. And so, you

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know, maybe I maybe I am mild,

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but I hang out with non-speaking

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people and I

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have more in common with them

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when they explain their experiences.

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When I get to read, I have a

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book of poetry here by Hannah

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Emerson, who is an absolutely

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phenomenal non-speaking

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poet.

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Hannah Emerson's book is called The

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Kissing of Kissing.

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And when I read her poems,

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when I see

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folks like William, who

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I talked about earlier, William.

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Suarez, who

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puts together these essays

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and poetry and

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this incredible connective.

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Communication.

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I have more in common with that

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than I do with the average

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non-autistic person that I have to

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go talk to at a

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school event or a party.

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I can't connect with those people

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the way I can connect with non

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speakers and

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the way that the autistic brain

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works is not more

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or less. It's not one way or

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the other.

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They've actually done

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neurological studies where they've

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tried to say, Oh, what does the

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autistic brain look like?

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What does a severely autistic

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brain look like?

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And what they found was that there

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is no one autistic

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brain. There is a non

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autistic brain.

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They had a neurotypical control

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group and their brains all mostly

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function the same. They followed the

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same patterns as each other,

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but autistic people's brains.

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There was no one pattern.

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Everyone's brain was doing something

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divergent, something different.

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And that's what we have in

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connection with each other.

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And that's why we can understand

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each other. And that's why peer

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support is so important.

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Because somebody with a brain that

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does that, the typical wiring

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does not understand what

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life is like for someone whose brain

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does not do that typical wiring

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and does not follow those typical

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paths.

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And you're 100% right.

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Peer support is a huge

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part of what I do

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in my spare time and my advocacy,

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but it's also what I really advocate

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for for autistic kids,

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especially autistic kids

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who are struggling.

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With.

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Things like institutional schools

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and things like families

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that don't understand them.

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Let's talk a bit about your

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advocacy. Right.

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A lot of folks tuning in are

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advocates themselves, and

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we talk about like

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a diverse amount

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of tactics and the need to diversify

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our tactics. And not everybody kind

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of goes that at tackling the status

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quo the same way.

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But when I look at the stuff

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that you do,

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not just single handedly,

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but the stuff that you've shared

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with me, from non-Autistic

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Poetry Night to

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your NDE and DP

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Group.

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You seem to use all the tactics.

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Well, a lot of them.

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Which one brings you the most joy,

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though, Lulu?

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Community building.

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Community building brings me the

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most joy. And in my opinion,

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it has been the most.

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Impactful work that

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I've done.

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The fact that I have been able to

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bring Neurodivergent

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folks together

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who otherwise would not ever

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have met and

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I have been able to get them into

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rooms where they

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can share their experiences

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in whatever communication

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method works for them,

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where they are not feeling pressured

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to speak out loud, where they are

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not feeling pressured to put their

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cameras on, and all of these things.

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And the fact that I have managed to

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get folks into rooms and that

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they've become friends

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and that now they have that person

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that they can hang

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out with, that person they can talk

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to that person, they can comment

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on their Facebook status

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when they're sick.

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That.

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The fact that, yeah, the

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fact that as humans, we're

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capable of bringing other humans

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together and

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building communities.

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I am 100%

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swept away whenever we have

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events and and meetings

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and things like this.

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You mentioned that in the NDP,

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that's the Neurodivergent NDP.

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So that's a group of

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volunteers and advocates

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and allies

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and NDP members

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and folks that really want to see

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neurodivergent issues

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advanced on and progressed

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on. Because right now,

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unfortunately, progressive parties

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like the NDP, who

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are progressive in many other ways,

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are still living.

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You know, in in the past

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when it comes to things like autism

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and mental health

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and when all of your solutions to

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neurological and psychological

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conditions are behavioral,

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you're really missing the point of

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the problem, right?

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You're not actually getting to the

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root of what's going

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on and what people are experiencing

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and slapping Band-Aids on

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on wounds, you know, without

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actually closing them, as we know,

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does not help, does not work,

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and actually leads to a huge

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potential for like

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serious infection and serious

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harm that gets in because

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you didn't do what you needed to

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do to begin with.

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And so

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with the narrative in NDP,

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we actually formed because

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a number of Neurodivergent

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NDP members

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and advocates

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were essentially just tired of

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hearing the same old, you know,

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stigmatizing language and

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bizarre, archaic, supposed

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solutions to

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the quote unquote autism file.

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And this is one of the things that

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I find very dehumanizing is the

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way that autistic

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kids are talked about by

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politicians,

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that there's a movement

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of calling saying that autistic

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children who are not being

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behaviorally modified are

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and I quote, languishing

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away.

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This is the kind of language they

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use to describe

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children who are reacting

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to the world around them, which is

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not built for them.

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And it's it's just really

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horrifying. They really painted as

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some kind of like like epidemic.

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You know, we have an actual plague

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going on, but it's autistic

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children that get treated like

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they're some kind of contagion or

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something like this.

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And that is really unfortunate.

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And so a number of

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us got together and

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I have to give a shout out to folks

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like Kamal Ahmed and Spencer

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Gallup, who are a couple of the

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first folks that really

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inspired me and

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like uplifted me and made

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me believe that we could actually do

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something together. So I'm going to

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cry because we actually have done

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something together.

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We've done something really amazing.

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I had to also shout out to Eric,

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Eric, Eddie, which is my my partner,

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who's also done a phenomenal amount

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of work with the and the NDP.

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But what we've created is actually

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this group of people who

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share experiences and

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share challenges and share struggles

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and are able to organize

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about it and are able able to

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support each other as we try

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to fight back.

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And there's something just really

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moving about it when,

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you know, whenever, whenever we

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actually get to do something,

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whenever, whenever I get

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to hear another neurodivergent

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person say, Thank God you guys are

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doing this or or whatever

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else, it it is

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completely mind

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blowing that we've able

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we've been able to make that space

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and to take that space up

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and to and to keep fighting,

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especially in the face of huge

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industries like

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the like the behavioral intervention

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industry.

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It is really against the

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interests of that industry

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for neurodivergent people to

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start talking to

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each other and to start getting

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connected and to start saying,

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actually we don't have to

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let this happen to kids

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like us. We don't have to let this

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happen to our community

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and to actually start fighting back

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against it. And now we've connected

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with folks in every province.

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We've connected with folks all

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over this

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colonial wreck of a planet.

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And, you know, we've also connected

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with neurodivergent

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political groups like

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the Neurodivergent Labor in

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the UK and Neurodivergent

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Labor in Australia, Labor

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in Australia, of course,

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having just formed government

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in the recent election and the

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Secretary of.

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Labor. Australia

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of the party is ADHD

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openly and is part of

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of neurodivergent Labor.

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And the fact that there's stuff like

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that worldwide and that we're,

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you know, following in the footsteps

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of these people that are doing such

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amazing work and that we're going to

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get that done here in Canada too.

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It's absolutely wonderful

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and it's hard.

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It's not easy to fight,

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you know, your own people.

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It's not easy to have to say,

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look, you guys, I know

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you care.

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I know that you believe the things

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you do about autism because you

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care.

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But those things are wrong and

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we need to do better.

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It's not easy work.

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People don't want to hear that.

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People don't want to hear they've

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been wrong about something that has

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felt so virtuous to them, has felt

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so good and so pure

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for them. Oh, I'm just supporting

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autistic children.

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So when I come in and I have to tell

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them, okay, it matters how

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it matters, what support, it

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matters. Because if

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if that quote unquote, therapy

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is somebody who actually sees this

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kid as a series of behaviors,

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you know, there are behavioral

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intervention people, their names,

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their title is behavior

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technician.

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These are people who are exposed to

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three year olds for

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sometimes 6 hours a day, five

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days a week.

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Behavioral technicians, they're

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there to.

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I don't know.

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Make your robot child

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act the way it's supposed to.

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And that's that's scary stuff.

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And the fact that support

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for that often comes from what is

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the left, what is supposed to be the

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progressive side of politics?

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Yeah, it's it's awful.

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It feels terrible.

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But let me tell you, it feels a

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lot less terrible when you're

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in a group of other neurodivergent

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people who are ready to fight back

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and support each other, not

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just in political fights, but in

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personal ones, in making

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sure people you're you're getting

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the medical care that you need and

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the supplies that you need and

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making sure that you're being taken

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care of when disasters have struck.

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And when you have that group of

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people that are that are ready to

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in the long haul, because this is

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a long term fight.

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And so being able to actually build

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community like that means

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everything, I

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think, not just to me, but to

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everybody within the NDA.

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It's it means quite a lot

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that we're able to do it.

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So a lot of a lot

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of the activists I've talked to

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speak of building communities, I

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think that's kind of pivotal to a

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lot of to organizing

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personally, Right?

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Is first job is

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bringing people together and making

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sure your spaces are safe and,

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you know, protecting them

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and so folks

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can grow and share and fight.

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But I imagine

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in our work as organizers

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on the left, that perhaps sometimes

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we're making spaces that aren't all

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that friendly to autistic people.

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Is there some things that

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a lot of us are?

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You know, I was in a

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meeting the other day and very

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progressive folks, but

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there was just this huge

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encouragement to turn on your

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camera. You had to turn on your

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camera. It was kind of like you

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weren't really participating.

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And immediately I thought

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of how uncomfortable

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that would make me on certain days.

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And so I felt forced to turn my

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camera on.

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But, you know,

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things like that, are there

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are there practical things that

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we could do better as organizers

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so that our spaces are

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more accommodating?

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Well, that's an excellent example

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for sure, making sure people don't

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have to turn cameras on.

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Partially because

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my experience is

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different than some people's in that

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I'm actually pretty comfortable

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being on a zoom and just like not

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looking at either myself

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or the other person

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because I've I

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am really bad at things like eye

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contact and facial

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like on my moderating my face.

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I'm just not good at that

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because it takes so much motor

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energy that then I can't pay

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attention to other stuff

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and.

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The other thing is being able to

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like stim.

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So a lot of autistic people will

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flap our hands or things

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like this or we'll rock back and

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forth.

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People in meetings will all the time

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see me rocking back and forth

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and things like this are seen

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as like disruptive or inpatient

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or things like this.

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And for that reason, a lot of people

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would prefer to just not have their

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camera on because that's something

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they really have to worry about.

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So that's a good example.

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Another example, um,

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inviting autistic

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people

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somewhere or sending

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like a attempting

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to reach out to autistic

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people.

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When you have,

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uh,

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when you have taken the words

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of non autistic

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autism advocates as

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fact.

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So this is something that people on

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the left do a lot is

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they hear a parent group

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or something that's called

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an advocacy group

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say something and

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they will repeat it

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without

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critically thinking about it and

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without looking into it and

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seeing how the people most impacted

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actually feel.

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And now this is the true across

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cases. They're like books

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by white people about

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white fragility, for example,

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which is like, okay, yeah, for sure.

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Why? Why would I listen to a white

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person about that, though?

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Because that's not

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that's not something a white person

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is actually going to be the best

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source for. And so that's not

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something I'm going to do. I'm going

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to turn to books by black people.

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If I want to hear about anti-black

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racism, you know, I'm going to turn

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I'm going to turn to resources

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by trans folks when I want to hear

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what trans experiences are like.

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And for some reason on

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the left, it's okay

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to hear from non autistic

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people about what autistic lives are

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like.

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And I don't know why.

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That's okay.

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I know it has been the case with

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other marginalized Asians before.

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Absolutely.

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And with other oppressed people.

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That's absolutely the case.

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But I do not understand

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why people on the left act that

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way towards disabled folks and

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towards autistics and I should say

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all disabled folks, because it's not

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just autistics, it's also

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non-disabled people who fight

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so hard for things like

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Bill C-7 to expand access

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to MAID. That's another thing to

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expand access to medically

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a medical assistance in death.

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And that's something that again, the

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biggest advocates

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for that and they call themselves

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that the biggest

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advocates for those expansions

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are not the people that expansion's

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going to kill, yet

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those are the people who are seen as

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experts.

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Those those those

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people who, you know, are

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disregarding how many

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lives we're going to lose because of

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that expansion and

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lives that could have been led

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happily and comfortably

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if they if people were given the

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resources and accommodations

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that they need.

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And again, it comes back to this.

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And now, yes, the the

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further expansions upcoming

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the further expansions include

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folks whose only diagnosis is mental

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illness.

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It also includes mature

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minors.

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Which means parents

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can decide that their disabled

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child wants

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a medically assisted death.

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Obviously, that's horrifying.

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The the expansion

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the expansion to made was supported

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by all the major parties in

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parliament and was supported by the

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NDP. The Liberals and Conservatives

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opposed it some of the

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time and some

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of the time, didn't they?

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They opposed it on religious

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reasons, which is not the right

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reason to oppose it.

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It's one of those like, don't.

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It's not that we agree on why,

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but this is bad.

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That's got to hurt, though.

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I mean, it's like when the

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conservatives have the right to take

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on a bill and you just don't want

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to agree with them for the wrong

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reason. I cringed when you said

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that. I was hoping it was fully

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unanimous. We could hate them all.

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No, sadly,

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Honestly, though, it really

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is scary stuff.

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The Liberal government appointed

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a.

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The Liberal government called the

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Speaker for

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the deliberations about the

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expansion just this past week.

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And this guy that they called up

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has advocated for parents to

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be able to kill

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their kids with medically assisted

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death as young as five

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years old.

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I should say the thing

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that got me really into advocacy,

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you know, I thought I was

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because of these stigmas, you know,

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because I had only been in mental

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crisis for a decade and a half,

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and I didn't consider that serious.

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I considered myself, like, not

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disabled enough to really

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talk about it, and I

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should just be quiet about it

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because I

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don't have I'm

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not severe enough to actually talk

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about being disabled.

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And the thing that really

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actually got me to understand

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that disabled people's

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lives are valuable

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enough and my own life

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is valuable enough that I need to

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acknowledge how hard things are and

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I need to acknowledge how many

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accommodations I need.

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And, yes,

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you know, furlough centers, my life

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got considerably, considerably

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easier and I had considerably

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less challenges once I

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acknowledged I needed a lot of

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accommodations and started putting

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those accommodations in place.

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But until until

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I went to an event which was

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co-produced by Autistics United

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Canada.

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Autistics United Canada is an

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absolutely incredible national

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advocacy and education

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group who have done some really

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important work. And I really,

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really, I really respect and

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appreciate Artists United Canada,

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and they had

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put on an event for

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the disability day of mourning.

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Now, this is a day every

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year it's an annual

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vigil for

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disabled children and disabled

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adults, disabled people

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who were killed by their caregivers.

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Phil aside,

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there is a an advocate

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who did a

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a speech at

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this disability day of mourning

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event that I happened to get

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into because I at that

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time was trying to figure out what

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resources there were for autistic

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people around.

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And I found this event and I

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went to it and

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resolve Banerjee, who

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is another amazing advocate,

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writer and researcher,

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Raghav did a speech

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where he talked about how.

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The.

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The murdered disabled child

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is vilified and

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the parent is

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given.

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Praise because.

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They had so much on their plate.

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And this is the case when

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parents, you know, decide that

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their autistic non-speaking child

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is just so miserable

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that they would be better off

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deceased.

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Then, you know, now

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now they're going to have a legal

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right to do that.

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And that means that non-speaking

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autistic will never have the chance

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to develop a system of

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communication. We will never get to

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learn what was in their brain.

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They may never go on to do the

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things that they might have done.

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They may not go on to do the art,

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to write the poems, to do

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the paintings, to have the

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relationships that they would have

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had. And it's because people

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have decided that

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disabled folks lives are not

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valuable and can't be valuable.

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And unfortunately, you know,

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we talk about misconceptions and

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oppression, and that's the

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that's the root of it.

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That's able ism right there.

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And this is

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something C-7 is something that has

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has really called into sharp

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attention the lack

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of disability, justice, education

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on the left

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ever.

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It's been being

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talked about for, you know, more

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than a year.

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And still there are people on

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the left saying, well, I support

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medically assisted death.

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And disabled people have to say,

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yeah, we we do as well.

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But lifting these safeguards right

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now and expanding access

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to children

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and people whose only diagnosis

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is mental illness and people

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who do not have a foreseeable death,

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and people who are only suffering

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because they don't have the housing

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and the supports and the

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the living support

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that they need to live

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the good life they have in

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their potential future.

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Instead, these people.

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Are going to die.

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This is something that was brought

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to the federal NDP convention.

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There was an emergency resolution

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last year at the convention

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which asked the party urgently

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to specifically to consult

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with autistic people about

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support of things like

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C-7 and the National Autism

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Strategy, which is a

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piece of legislation which

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is being written by non

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autistic people and non autistic

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organizations,

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obviously.

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And as as these go through.

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The problem is that it's

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not again, it's not that

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I don't like this.

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It's that it's deadly.

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It's that this expansion

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you know, I can talk about how

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autistic people are stigmatized

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and ostracized

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and treated horribly everywhere from

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school to workplaces.

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And then I can tell you that we're

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about to make it so

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anyone who's depressed can

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immediately qualify for maid.

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I can't.

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We can't build a community

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with disabled folks.

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We can't help disabled people

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if we're just offering them only

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death and nothing else.

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And unfortunately,

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yeah, that's that's a message that

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seems not to have resonated

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yet with much of.

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Much of the left, which is

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in Canada, which is a really

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startling thing.

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Yeah.

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You know, we're getting near the

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kind of end of our session.

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I imagine I'm going to have to have

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you on again to talk more

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specifically on

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some campaigns that

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are going to shape up.

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But if you could have the

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allies ship.

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Of listeners, if you could call

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them, to action to help.

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With your work and

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what's one thing or you

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know, what broadly

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could you tell them?

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That's where they need to start.

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Listen to non-speaking autistic

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people is where I would start

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presume competence

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of non speakers and listen

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to non-speaking autistic people.

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There are non speakers who have

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been absolutely

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unbelievably patient

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as social

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movements and politicians

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have talked over them and walked

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over them.

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And then I cannot tell

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you how much

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non-speaking autistics have been

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through

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because of

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so-called progressive people's

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insistence on listening

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to non autistic people

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about what experiencing life as

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an autistic person is like.

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I'm sure I can provide some links

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that can be in the description of

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the podcast to some folks that

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folks can listen to and folks that

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people can check out.

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I highly recommend

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Communication first and

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the International Association for

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Swallowing as communication as

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starting points, because

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those those are

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organizations that have

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like endless resources from

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non-speaking people.

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Because when we talk about, you

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know, oh, this kid, he's crying and

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running away. So we have to deal

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with this behavior.

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We're missing the experience of

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that human being.

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We are missing the experience of

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that person.

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And if we can go to somebody else

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who screams and runs away when

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things are overwhelming, who

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has developed a system of

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communication, who has been given

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access to communication, and we

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can ask them, what

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is that experience like?

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What do you need in that situation

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that is worth 1 million

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times more than any temporary

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behavioral performance

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of not having that experience?

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And so, yeah, my

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number one thing is get

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your information from non-speaking

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autistic people about autism.

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And I feel like I have to add the

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disclaimer to also believe

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that, yes, whatever the kit,

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I don't care how absurd

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you think the accommodation sounds,

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you know, a kind of light

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texture.

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Just believe them.

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Yeah, because that is

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my biggest frustration is

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trying to

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have folks understand

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and be empathetic towards

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it in order

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to provide the accommodation.

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Well, that doesn't make sense to

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you.

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And again, it's about the experience

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of it, right? It's about recognizing

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that other people who have different

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kinds of brain, the you and

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different kinds of nervous system

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interacts with the world differently

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than you. And when you can accept

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that and acknowledge that actually

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a lot of stuff becomes less

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frustrating and it becomes a lot

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easier to maintain

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relationships and communication

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and all kinds of other things, once

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you can acknowledge the way

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I would experience the situation

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is not necessarily how that person

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is experiencing the situation.

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You have to listen to that person

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exactly right.

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You have to believe that person

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about how they are experiencing the

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situation, because otherwise

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you're not doing equity, you're

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not doing justice, you're doing

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ego.

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And that's not what our movements

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are supposed to be made out of.

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Yeah, yeah.

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No. Why do you need the

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accommodation? Because I think a lot

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of people

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don't realize why,

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Right? They just know.

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I don't know why that light bothers

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me. Right. Yeah, I.

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It just does.

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Yeah. I don't know why I get home

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at the end of the day and need to

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decompress for half an hour before

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anyone asks me a question.

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I just do.

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Yeah.

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So hundred percent.

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And yeah, having to defend

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that, especially children who most

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certainly cannot articulate

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why something needs to be turned off

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or on or whatever

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is incredibly frustrating.

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So like, although

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folks can advocate for themselves,

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I'm so grateful that there are

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people that, you know, take this

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onus on themselves the

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way that you have, the way that, you

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know, other guests have, too.

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One of the other things one of the

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other things that really sucks

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is I would rather

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have given this interview

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to a non like I would rather have

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brought a non speaker up and been

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like, Hey, do you want to do this

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interview?

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But right now on the left,

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it's not really safe

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for autistic people to be

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advocating.

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The reason that I

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push as hard as I do and the reason

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that I'm making the space I'm making

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is because non

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speakers and autistic

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folks in general right now don't

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feel safe engaging

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in a lot of political stuff.

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You've got to hide yourself there.

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You can't you know, there's so much

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ableism, there's so much

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inaccessibility

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that. A lot of folks are just

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tuning out.

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And unfortunately,

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when we do things like we have this,

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yeah, this actually kind

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of ties into the idea

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of like disability fakers.

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This is, again, another conservative

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ideal that a lot of leftists

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unfortunately also hold, which

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is this idea that there are people

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taking advantage of accommodations

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and disability supports, which

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is absurd because you have to

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fight literally like through

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fire and brimstone to

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get supports and

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to get accommodations.

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And I don't know anyone who would do

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that, like just to

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get an accommodation that didn't

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help them that

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they didn't need.

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That's just not how that

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works.

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And unfortunately.

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To me, that makes no sense at all

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because I would rather hide

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it. Yeah. Than

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be open and beg.

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For an accommodation solely then beg

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and then then to to

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lose your, you know, your

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sense of of

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authenticity and all of this because

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you've got to, you know, go through

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these dehumanizing

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trials just to get accommodations.

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And yeah, that asking why

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is like it's a certain kind of

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cruelty right.

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You've you've got to try to

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especially for folks who have never

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received adequate support,

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who don't have the words to advocate

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for themselves, even if you are

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speaking, if you've never been

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actually exposed to the types

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of accommodations and the

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types of sensory experiences

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and all of this, then how on earth

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are you supposed to know what to ask

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for and how,

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let alone to explain?

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Like I can't explain the

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physical internal reaction

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that's happening.

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You know, when the air conditioners

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so loud that I can't think.

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I don't know how to explain that

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past that, but that's

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100% a thing that will

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stop me from getting any work done

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all day long.

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And that's not something that folks

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for whom that is not a problem

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can really understand.

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It's not something that people have

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a reference for.

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But we've got this sort of trend of

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people that will say things like,

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Oh, everyone's a little

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neurodivergent insert

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here. So people will say, Oh,

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you know, everyone's a little ADHD

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sometimes or something like that.

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I hear that all the time.

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Everybody's I hear that somewhere on

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the spectrum or whatever.

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And the problem with phrases like

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that is it leaves these people who

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are not autistic, who are not

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ADHD, to believe

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that an

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event that has happened to them

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allows them to understand what

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it's like to live as an autistic

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person every single day.

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And that's just not the case.

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They just don't have that frame of

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reference.

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And that has I really

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believe that's been a huge driver.

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That kind of language and that kind

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of attitude has been a huge driver

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towards people saying things

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like, Why would you need that

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accommodation? We all have trouble

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with bright lights sometimes.

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Why would you need that

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accommodation when the rest of us

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can just deal with it

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and it's because we're not

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experiencing it the same way

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at all.

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But yeah, there's this belief that,

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you know, well, I experience things,

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so that's how it must be.

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And yeah, that, that absolutely

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screws people out of accommodations

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all the time, which

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is awful.

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I actually also really appreciate

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the point about like having

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to go beg for accommodations

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because I really do want to

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highlight like it's an incredibly

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dehumanizing and

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disrespectful process

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in every institution

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to go there and get accommodations

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and to go there and be openly

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disabled.

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There aren't institutions that have

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made that an empowering process.

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I can't name one

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other than like, you know, folks,

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folks in grassroots organizing

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groups, like people like the

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Disability Justice Network.

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And I would hope

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some of the work that I do as well.

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But I you know, I'm not the one that

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gets to say that even.

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And I have to recognize that.

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So, like, what does that look like?

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May be actively providing

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accommodations.

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You know,

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people are likely to need

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asking ahead of events

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100% accommodations.

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You know, organizers can expect

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rather than waiting for somebody to

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come and say, I need.

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Yeah. Subtitles, right?

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I need subtitles.

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Can you put them on?

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I mean, that those are just small

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kind of commonsense things.

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But I found like,

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just adding an accessibility field,

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you know, to an invitation.

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Absolutely.

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So that, yeah, nobody has to figure

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out what the mechanism is.

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And then following up on it.

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Right. Because another problem is

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that sometimes people will put

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something like a field in, but then

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they'll decide it's not useful

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because they aren't following up on

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it.

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They the gatekeepers are like,

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Oh, this system's too hard for me.

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I need to just not do this.

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Which is unfortunately, what happens

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in a lot of institutions and

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organizations is

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that non-disabled people really

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don't understand how vital those

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accommodations are and the space

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to make those accommodations.

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Nobody wants to go to an event

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and have to go to,

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you know, get in through the back

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door because there's no ramp at the

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front. And then it's so loud in

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there and there's absolutely no

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break and there's no, you know,

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access to things.

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Nobody wants to go through that.

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But we force people to by

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not proactively thinking about

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it.

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And I also don't want anyone to

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believe that you can you can foresee

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every possible accommodation that's

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necessary.

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It is very wise

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to get in the habit

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of, you know, a

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semi, a universal design.

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A lot of folks don't have the

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you know, especially grassroots

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groups don't have resources to

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redesign every single one of their

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bits of work all at once.

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But attempting to make sure

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that all of your spaces provide

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a base accommodation

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group or a base list of

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accommodations

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and then having that space where you

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peop you know that people will be

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listened to and people know that

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they will be listened to.

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And having that space to say, hey,

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what doesn't work for you?

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If there's something you need,

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please let us know.

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Here's the resources to let

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us know. We're not just going to

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say, oh, email us.

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We're going to.

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Actually mail the accessibility

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officer an email address

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I'm going to mention once and not

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put in the chat.

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Exactly.

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The kind of thing doesn't happen.

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Wouldn't it be horrible if it did?

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Wouldn't that be so exclusionary

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and anti equitable

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and oppressive if that was how

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people were going about things?

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And so, yeah, it's it's it's really

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it is unacceptable stuff

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and it goes on every day.

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So, Lulu,

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I've asked you a lot of questions,

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but is there anything.

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That.

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I didn't ask that you definitely

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wanted to share.

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Yeah.

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One thing I will say is

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being an artistic advocate in

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supposedly progressive spaces

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has been really

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illuminating for me.

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Um, and I,

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I say that because

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autistic people are

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presumed to be

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incapable.

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No matter what we are doing.

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So I'm currently

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in a master's degree

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doing actual research

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on autistic youths well-being.

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I've also been studying

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autism and autistic people for

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something like a decade.

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I've been

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a peer supporter for autistic

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people through the Mood Disorders

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Association of Ontario,

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and I work with multiple advocacy

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groups across Canada and across

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the world.

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But because I'm.

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Autistic.

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And because I say I'm autistic,

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there are politicians

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who will say, I can't possibly

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know anything about autism

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and I can't possibly be telling the

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truth because I'm speaking.

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But that same politician

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will then go to a non autistic

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speaking parent

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and believe what that parent says

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about autism.

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Now, that parent is not

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hasn't been studying autism for ten

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years, isn't currently researching

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autism officially with

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government funding and

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hasn't been involved

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in the autistic community,

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doesn't have any adult

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non-speaking autistic friends that

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they don't have power over.

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But that's the person that's going

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to be listened to, not the

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autistic expert of the field.

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And that the only

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reason that that could be happening

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is able is a

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that's what that is.

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That's prejudice

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and ableism.

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And unfortunately, that's running

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rampant.

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And so, yeah.

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The other thing I would say is just

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that people need to leave

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their biases and assumptions

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about what autism means

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and what autism feels

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like to autistic people

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behind in the past,

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because that's where the information

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they formed those assumptions from

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is from the past.

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It's ancient history

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at this point.

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So anybody who

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wants to talk about autism,

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whether you're a politician or,

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you know, a even a non

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autistic disabled advocate or

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somebody else,

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you can't go in

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with assumptions that you

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learned from people who are

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autistic.

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You can't go in with assumptions

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that you had backed up

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by

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sensationalized media.

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You know, you have to go into

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these conversations recognizing

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that what you've learned about

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autism was wrong.

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Sometimes it's it sucks to hear that

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that what we think we

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know about something is wrong.

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But what most leftists

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know about autism is simply

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not true.

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It's not how autistic brains

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work.

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And so that's that's what I would

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say is I really need people to

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understand that.

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And there's nothing wrong with you

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for not knowing about autism.

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There's nothing wrong with the

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people who are mistaken,

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who have been taught wrong.

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That's that's not.

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You're not the problem.

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But if you hear this stuff and

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you read these resources and you go

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check out these non speakers that

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I'm talking about

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and you still side

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with non autistic people about

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this political issue, about

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this justice issue,

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then you're kind of the problem,

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you know.

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And so I do need people to start

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thinking about that and to start

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putting that in perspective for

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themselves because like

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as the tide turns, it's

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going to be really embarrassing

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for people who are fighting

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the tide.

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You can't stop it.

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This is a justice issue.

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This is a human rights issue.

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And believing hard enough that

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you're on the right side of it,

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that's not going to cut it for

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you when it actually comes

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around. So I just really,

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really hope that people can think

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about it critically

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before they throw support behind

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things that are actually really

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ablest.

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Yeah, I think there's a lot of

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unpacking of the abilities.

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I think that's one of the

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last isms too, for us

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to really explore because like I

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said at the beginning, I have never

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seen

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that absence of nothing

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for us without us

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in any kind of policy formation,

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except when it has to deal

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with disabled folks.

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And you made a

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comment there where folks

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need to understand

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autism better and

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understand the autistic experience

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better.

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And that also

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goes for people who've gone

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undiagnosed for some autistic

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people, because those

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those misconceptions permeate

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everybody there.

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Society will say, yeah, yeah,

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that ableism isn't just enabled

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people, unfortunately,

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and it has such a devastating

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impact.

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It does.

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It does.

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A recent study

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and again, this is you know,

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one of the things about being

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autistic is that.

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Most autistic folks

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really treasure

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input and information in

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a way that non-autistic people don't

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as much.

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I found

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and one of the things there is

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I like having backup

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for what I'm saying.

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Like, I like knowing what I know and

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knowing why it's the case.

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I need to know why something is the

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case. If I am going to actually

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think that I believe it.

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And when we

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don't know.

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Why there's why

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this disconnection keeps happening

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between people or why

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this environment that other people

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seem okay in is so stressful to

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us. Or why, if all the

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other kids can sit in the circle,

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why does it feel so bad for me to

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sit in the circle?

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And if you don't know that you

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haven't had that explained to you

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that your circuitry is processing

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things different than other

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people's, then you you think

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there's something wrong with you.

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And a very reasoned study, which is

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really horrifying in Sweden,

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found that the majority

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of people hospitalized

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for psychiatric problems

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when they were properly screened

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were ADHD and autistic

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people.

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And out of the 34

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autistic people that they found,

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only seven of

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those people were diagnosed

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autistic.

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And this survey found 34

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in this one hospital.

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Those people were undiagnosed

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their whole lives

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and they went through a mental

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crisis because of it.

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And there's no denying that that's

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how that goes when you're autistic

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and you go through the world and you

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don't have accommodations and you're

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expected to act like everybody else.

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It leads to mental illness that

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leads to mental crisis.

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And we know that.

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So we really need to back

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away from behavioral

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services and people

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who want us to believe.

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That.

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Autistic people's

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suffering and struggling

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comes from the autistic

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person's own behavior.

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That's just not how it works.

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The struggle and the suffering comes

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from the environment and the

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society, which is consistently

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oppressing and pushing autistic

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people down to try and

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turn them into something they're

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not.

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And that's what actually causes

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the harm.

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I totally wish more people

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understood that perspective.

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Lulu and I, we're working on it.

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I yeah, I was just going to say, I

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know that is your mission and not

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just your mission, so

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I know you had a bright moment.

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I know it was a lot of doom and

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gloom, but you had a bright

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moment there where you said, you

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know, we have done a lot and you

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have.

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And we can do more.

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That's the thing. I don't

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believe there is a limit to

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how much autistic people can can

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achieve and neurodivergent people in

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general. I know we talk a lot about

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autism here because that's like a

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sort of a political

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issue at this moment.

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But very soon so will be

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ADHD and OCD

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and

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things like

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dyslexia and dyspraxia

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and all of these things because

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people who are neurodivergent

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are running

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up against these barriers

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and these barriers are being made

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taller right now.

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They're being made thicker.

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They're being made harder to scale

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by this sort of doubling down

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on a behavior focus.

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This industry will expand.

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It will not just be autistic people

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that be the behavior intervention

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industry targets.

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Once they have successfully

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legislated themselves into autistic

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people's lives, they will legislate

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themselves into other children's

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lives. They will legislate

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themselves into a disabled adults

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lives. They will legislate

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themselves into poor people's

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lives because those poor people just

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aren't behaving well enough to

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make the money they need.

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It's going to expand.

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This is an industry which is a

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threat to every marginalized

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community and it needs to start

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being treated that way.

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Lulu, I want to thank you so much

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for your time again

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and again. I honestly could never

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thank you enough on

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a personal note.

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But professionally, you know, you

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you spent time here informing our

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listeners. You spend countless

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hours trying to better

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the NDP and the policies there.

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And then just all of

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your work in the Neurodivergent

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community and

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the academic work that you do.

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So I thank you very, very much.

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Thank you so much, Lulu.

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